urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:monika808 so...I'm going to tell you :) monika808 2006-02-14T00:49:32Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:monika808:7142 2006-02-14T00:49:32Z 2006-02-14T00:49:32Z stupid girl. that's me. stupid stupid girl. i over react and now i'm screwed over. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:monika808:6858 2006-02-06T14:48:42Z 2006-02-06T14:48:42Z NO MORE KIDS! I'm so excited, still sick- but way richer and way less stressed ;) Now I go house sit with Mary for 2 weeks. That's ok though- just a dog. I miss my family though, I've talked to my mom and saw her a lot but I haven't seen my dad in over a week- Maybe I'll invite him to go out to dinner sometime this week- anyways, I think I'm going to be done with this thing- I hate how no one ever comments- its annoying- urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:monika808:6503 2006-02-04T00:38:24Z 2006-02-04T00:38:24Z -DRAMA DORK--<br />[ ] Ever been in a play?<br />[ ] More than 10 Broadway shows?<br />[ ] Have you ever been/Are you in school shows?<br />[ ] Does your current job involve theater in some way?<br />[ ] Want to end up working in/for theater <br />[ ] Can you recite all of the lyrics to your favorite play/musical?<br />[ ] Do you break out into random songs whenever/wherever!!<br /><br />Total [0]<br /><br />--REDNECK--<br />[ ] Do you have a couch in your front yard or porch?<br />[x] Do you drive a four-wheeler?<br />[x] Do you ride four-wheelers? <br />[x] Do you like to get dirty in mud?<br />[x] Do you like country music?<br />[x] Do you have a broken car in your backyard?<br />[ ] Do you own a cowboy hat?<br />[x] Do you live on more then 1 acres?<br />[ ] Do you have more than 4 different animals at your home?<br /><br />Total [6]<br /><br />--GOTH--<br />[x] Do you wear black eyeliner?<br />[x] Is most of your clothing dark?<br />[x] Do you think about death?<br />[ ] Do you want to die?<br />[ ] Are you a social outcast?<br />[x] Are you pale?<br />[x] Do you like Hot Topic?<br />[ ] Do you enjoy Tim Burton movies?<br />[x] Are you mean sometimes<br /><br />Total [6]<br /><br />--SKATER/PUNK--<br />[ ] Can you skateboard?<br />[ ] Do you wear Vans/Etnies?<br />[x]Do you do stupid stuff with your friends?<br />[ ] Do you watch the x-games?<br />[x] Do you have any piercings?<br />[ ] Do you wear a mohawk?<br />[ ] Do you wear Band T-shirts<br />[ ] Have you called someone a poser recently?<br /><br />Total [2]<br /><br />--PREP--<br />[x] Do you say the word "like"?<br />[ ] Do you shop at Hollister/Abercrombie & Fitch<br />[ ] Do you pop the collar?<br />[ ] Do the people in Hot topic scare you?<br />[ ] Is the only nerd you like Seth Cohen?<br />[x] Do you watch LAGUNA BEACH?<br />[ ] Do you like pop music? <br />[ ] Do you have a dog?<br /><br />Total [2]<br /><br />--HIPPIE--<br />[x]Is your hair long?<br />[ ] Do you own a tye-dye shirt?<br />[x] Do you want to save the animals?<br />[ ] Do you think war is unnecessary? <br />[x] Do you like classic rock and trippy music?<br />[ ] Have you ever participated in a protest?<br />[ ] Have you ever been overcome with a desire to hug a tree?<br /><br />Total [3]<br /><br />--GANGSTA--<br />[x] Do you act ghetto?<br />[ ] Do you wear do-rags?<br />[x] Do you like hip-hop? <br />[x] Was Tupac truly the greatest rapper in the world? <br />[ ] Do you believe he's alive?<br />[x] Do you like afro's?<br />[ ] Have you ever said "Fo Shizzle"?<br />[x] Do you like to dance?<br />[ ] Do you own any Baby Phat or G-Unit?<br /><br />Total [5]<br /><br />--EMO--<br />[x] Do you cry often?<br />[x] Do you wear hoodies?<br />[x] Do you like soft music? <br />[ ] Do people not understand you?<br />[x] Do you write your own poems?<br />[x] Ever dyed your hair red, black or dark?<br />[ ] Do you cut your own hair?<br />[ ] Are you lonely?<br />[ ] Is 'Ohio is for Lovers' by Hawthorne Heights a good song?<br /><br />Total [5]<br /><br />--SURFER--<br />[ ] Do you surf?<br />[x] Do you wear flip flops year-round?<br />[ ] Is your hair shaggy? (unbrushed)<br />[ ] Do you wake up before 6 every morning?<br />[x] Do you own Many pairs of shorts? <br />[x] Do you yearn for the smell of salt water?<br />[x] Do you want to be at the beach right now?<br />[x] Do you hate tourists?<br /><br />Total [5]<br /><br />--GEEK--<br />[x] Do you wear glasses?<br />[ ] Do you use an inhaler?<br />[ ] Do you stick pens and calculators into your shirt pockets?<br />[ ] Does your mom pick out your clothes?<br />[x] Are you on the computer often?<br />[x] Do you look forward to going to school?<br />[ ] Are you shy around the opposite sex?<br />[ ] Do you play video games?<br /><br />Total [3]<br /><br />--JOCK--<br />[x] Do you own a lot of Nike, Adidas, or underarmor?<br />[x] Do you love the smell of fresh cut grass?<br />[ ] Are you constantly worrying about being in shape? <br />[ ] Do you let people know its game day by yelling it through the halls?<br />[ ] Do you play 2 or more sports? <br />[ ] Do you know a lot of people just from playing a team sport?<br />[x] Do you love grass stains, mud, and hurting people?<br />[ ] Does a whistle blowing pump your adrenaline?<br />[x] Are you very school spirited?<br /><br />Total [3]<br /><br />--NINJA--<br />[ ] Do you own any swords? <br />[x] Does the sound of pain amuse you? <br />[x] Do you wear all black clothing?<br />[x] Have you ever made those little paper ninja stars? (I BOUGHT a ninja star!)<br />[ ] Have you ever played Ninja Gaiden?<br />[ ] Can you vanish in a puff of smoke? <br />[ ] Can you hide in the shadows?<br />[ ] Can you kill people without them knowing?<br />[ ] Can you speak Japanese?<br /><br />Total [3]<br /><br />--VAMPIRE--<br />[ ] Do you have the urge to drink blood?<br />[x] Do you fall asleep easily in the daytime?<br />[ ] Are you the most active at night?<br />[x] Does sunlight burn your flesh? <br />[x] Are you pale?<br />[ ] Do you find yourself unnaturally attracted to a person's neck?<br />[ ] Do you have fangs?<br /><br />Total [3] urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:monika808:6231 2006-02-02T22:49:38Z 2006-02-02T22:49:38Z So...today is the one week mark of being a mom. I've been staying with a three year old and an 8 month old at their house and I'm going insane. For anyone who knows me- you know that I don't like kids. So this is PURE torture. Their parents come back on sunday around 10 pm. I just cant' wait to get paid. 11 days is too long for parents to leave such a little kids and I'm getting the wrath of it. Both boys have ear infections so I had to take them to the doctor and one has fever blisters on his mouth and throat. Now I'm sick too- wonderful. The dog has been puking and so have both boys= I'm about to kill. Overall they are two good boys, but being sick and missing the parents is a terrible combo. I'm really glad I don't have any kids- I'm sure I'd put them up for adoption at this point. All they do is cry, poop and puke. It's disgusting.<br />I've been talking about living with my cousin next year, I'll be done with school and wouldn't mind living somewhere else if it worked out. I'm not sure how we'd get along, but I think it would be so fun. <br />Oh- the mom here has this perfume that I love so now I need to go to NYC and get some from Chinatown. It's allure by chanel - i'm in love. <br />that's all for now= oh...this jerkoff guy sent me a mean thing to myspace- how can i make it for friends only?? please help me!<br />KEEP PRAYING FOR ME PLEASE! I NEED MORE PATIENCE! urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:monika808:5953 2006-01-16T00:30:23Z 2006-01-16T00:30:23Z 1) Are your parents married or divorced?<br />Married for 27 years, almost 28<br /><br />2) Vegetarian?<br />no, but I'm really picky on my meat, anything I had/have in my backyard I will not eat.<br /><br />3) Heaven?<br />Absolutely. <br /><br />4) Come close to dying?<br />No<br /><br />5) What jewelry do you wear?<br />right now I'm plain Jane because I can't wear them at school- so I only wear my tragus piercings because I can't take them out by myself<br /><br />6) Are you eating?<br />Just ate peanut butter and jelly on toast, Spatz :)<br /><br />7) Do you eat the stems of broccoli?<br />Yes<br /><br />8) Makeup?<br />always mascara, we'll see if I get motivated to do any more<br /><br />10) Would you ever have plastic surgery?<br />Not sure, not an option now I'm broke. <br /><br />11) What do you wear to bed?<br />comfy pants, long sleeve shirt because my room is freezing, and sometimes socks- yes Mary! Socks!<br /><br />12) Have you ever done anything illegal?<br />dumb question<br /><br />13) Can you roll your tongue?<br />no <br /><br />14) Pluck your eyebrows?<br />yes, Val made me get a little obsessed with it<br /><br />15) What kind of watch (es) do you wear?<br />Fossil <br /><br />16) Abortion?<br />not for me<br /><br />17) Hair color?<br />Who knows- always changing<br /><br />18) Future child's name?<br />I love the name Laney, but we'll see<br /><br />19) Do you snore?<br />no, I talk though<br /><br />20) If you could go anywhere in the world on a vacation, where would you go?<br />I'd love to go to Boston or anywhere else out east- I've only been west <br /><br />21) Do you sleep with stuffed animals?<br />no I have too many pillows<br /><br />22) If you won the lottery, what would you do first?<br />I would just pay cash for everything for life- <br /><br />23) Gold or silver?<br />silver.<br /><br />24) Hamburger or hot dog?<br />hamburger <br /><br />25) If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would you choose?<br />oatmeal<br /><br />26) Beach, city, or country?<br />city<br /><br />27) Who was the last person you touched?<br />nikki- wait...is this supposed to be sexually?? Nikki was just here dropping stuff off and I bumped into her<br /><br />28) Where do you eat?<br />dining room<br /><br />29) When's the last time you cried?<br />i almost did on thursday but didn't- but it still counts<br /><br />30) Have you loved somebody so much it makes you cry?<br />eh- yea<br /><br />31) Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex?<br />i wear jeans and hoodies- does that count?<br /><br />32) Ever been involved with the police?<br />nothing too serious<br /><br />33) Believe in Santa?<br />YES<br /><br />34) Do you talk in your sleep?<br />yea<br /><br />35) Beach or pool?<br />beach I love sand!<br /><br />36) Can you cross your eyes?<br />no<br /><br />37) What's your favorite song at the moment?<br />anything by James Blunt<br /><br />38) Window seat or aisle?<br />aisle I hate flying and pretend I'm not on a plane<br /><br />39) Ever met any famous bands/singers/actors?<br />yes, Ted Nugent was my first<br /><br />40) Do you feel that you've ever had a truly successful relationship?<br />what is successful to you? I was satisfied with it, so I guess?<br /><br />41) Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?<br />twirl<br /><br />42) Rickie Lake or Oprah Winfrey?<br />Oprah<br /><br />43) Would you ever admit to having done plastic surgery of any kind if confronted?<br />No<br /><br />44) How long does your shower last?<br />I hate being in there long- my fingers prune- I'd say about 7 minutes max<br /><br />45) Do you drive stick?<br />No, I wish! I can do the handle part but I stall with the feet<br /><br />46) Cake or ice cream?~<br />ice cream hate cake<br /><br />48)What time do you get up?<br />depends what day- by 830 i'm up everyday<br /><br />49) Have you ever given money to a bum?<br />yes, lots of time in NY and once in saginaw, my heart aches for them<br /><br />50) When was your first crush?<br />that I remember 6th grade<br /><br />51) Where do you wish you were??<br />sleeping!<br /><br />52) Have you ever broken someone's heart?<br />not yet- but I think I need to!<br /><br />53) Ever been given a ring?<br />yea- never wear it, never want another one from a guy<br /><br />54) Longest relationship?<br />3 years and some random days and hook ups<br /><br />55) Last gift you received:<br />money<br /><br />56) Last sport you played?<br />pool does that count?<br /><br />57). Things you spend a lot of money on?<br />gas, shoes, drawers<br /><br />58) Where do you live?<br />munger<br /><br />59) High school you attend(ed):<br />nouvel<br /><br />60) Last wedding attended:<br />michael's sister<br /><br />61) Favorite fast food restaurant:<br />fazolis<br /><br />62) Where do you work:<br />mmg<br /><br />63) Can you cook?<br />not really...<br /><br />64) Most hated food:<br />chicken, turkey, fish<br /><br />65) Can you sing?<br />uh, no so i don't do it<br /><br />66) Last concert attended:<br />Dave<br /><br />67) Favorite Nonalcoholic drink:<br />water<br /><br />68) Favorite Alcoholic drink:<br />i'm not drinking for a month, so i cant talk about it<br /><br />69) Current Love:<br />good movies urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:monika808:5745 2006-01-13T00:42:26Z 2006-01-13T00:42:26Z <p>okay- so i haven't updated in a LONG time and enough people have given me a hard time for it, so here I am. Pretty much all I've been doing is watching Sex and the City and wishing I was in NYC being able to shop at the HUGE Victoria Secret store and HM whenever I want. Val and I tried planning a trip there, but we are both poor college kids with little to spare right now. Especially after Christmas. </p> <p>Starting next week I will be an official mom. I am babysitting 2 boys under the age of 3 for ten days straight. Their parents are going to Hawaii and I think I'm going to die. THe other day Chase was at my house..the 3 year old...and he pooped on my bathroom floor- i wanted to cry. The only room in my WHOLE house that has carpet and that's the one he chose to shit on. Wonderful. Please keep me in your prayers while I'm crying. If anyone is good with kids- please let me know- let's hang out :)</p> <p>I'm pretty sure that I'm having a drought- I can't seem to like any guys lately that are worth anything- </p> <p>I had a terrible evening with my dad tonight, he's got so much power and he doesnt realize it. He has hurt my family so many ways yet is so naive to it all. I don't understand what goes through that mans head. </p> <p>Pretty much all for now, I'm way more addicted to Facebook then this now, so that's another reason I'm not on here- if you're on facebook...find me :) let's be friends! If you do'nt know my last name, just ask--- bye guys! </p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p>Monica</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:monika808:5417 2005-11-19T01:38:06Z 2005-11-19T01:38:06Z <p>I haven't been home since Monday and I am sick of sleeping in other beds. As much as I love seeing everyone, <font color="#ff6600">I <font color="#3366ff">miss </font>snuggling up with my pillows and blankets. I <font color="#3366ff">miss</font> the smell of my house, I <font color="#3366ff">miss </font>my couch, I <font color="#3366ff">miss </font>my shower, I <font color="#3366ff">miss </font><font size="4"><strong>everything</strong></font></font>...only a couple more hours and I will be there. I can't wait <font color="#ff0000" size="5"><strong>:)</strong></font></p> <p>There was some drama with my teachers this week but unfortunatley for them I started out going into Criminal Pysch and I know <u>way</u> more about the law then they thought I did. Needless to say things worked out in my best interest and I am just hoping they don't hold this against me all year. I love hanging out with Erica and Chelsea those girls are so funny, and its fun to have new friends that you learn about. I usually don't like meeting new people, but in this case it worked out. They are trying to talk to&nbsp;me into going to CMU tomorrow night, but my body is exhausted from everything that has happened this past week, I'm not sure if I'm going to go or not. I'd rather hang out and watch dvds all night. I really don't want to go there, no offense to the boys- but I can go anytime, so we'll work something out. </p> <p>I'm still babysitting- its strange going from never having done it in my life to doing it all the time lately. I know I complain about it, but its easy money and Chase isn't that bad. He's lucky he's cute though. I watched him all day and now I'm watching Mary's nephew Ashton while his parents are at the Spirit game. He's sleeping now, and I'm thinking that I might take a nap too...but I'm scared they'll come home and be like what the hell?</p> <p>Everyone will be home pretty soon, I miss my group...<u><font color="#cc33cc">I wish Beth was going to be here</font></u>, but not until Dec. 19th. Hopefully the time will fly- I want to go out with her and show her how fun it is here... compared to AZ...haha yea right :) I need to go out there soon, its been way too long since I've been to Phoenix, and I can <strong>def.</strong> use a vacation.</p> <p>My money problems are supposed to be coming to an end according to my horoscope, so that's cool. I'm done making car payments which is really nice- but now I want a new car...but I'm going to wait till I'm done with school. I've actually noticed that my savings is growing and my card is paid off almost too, so maybe my horoscope is right. Have any of you done Runes before? I just bought them and even though I'm not supposed to believe in that stuff,<font color="#33cc00"> I love it</font><font color="#ff99ff">.</font> I think its soo fun- I'm a big reader into signs, and I thought some were happening, but now I'm second guessing that. </p> <p>Anyways- I am going to see what's on friday night tv- I couldn't tell you the last time I wasn't out on a friday- this is kind of nice :) I can't wait to see everyone over thanksgiving- don't forget going out on tuesday with me...yay! </p> <p>Trisha- when will you be here? <font color="#ff9966">We can't waste time</font></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:monika808:5192 2005-11-17T02:07:20Z 2005-11-17T02:07:20Z <p>So I pulled a Val today and took a personal day. It's my first time skipping class this semester so I think it's all right. I hung out with my aunt for a bit, we went to my house and she helped me with get my jewelry together to take to the dentist office to sell. Then went back to her house and hung out for a minute. I went to Dr. Herzler's and they bought a ton of jewelry and gave me scrubs and masks to use for class, I was so excited! I know it sounds so boring, but it's so fun to me haha. Then I went shopping, Old Navy, the mall, Best Buy, Wal-Mart- all over, I started Christmas shopping for Nikki- so far she's all I've bought for. </p> <p>After shopping I had some time to kill, so I went and saw the Stephen's, Brayton is up north hunting, but Lottie was there. I stayed and talked with her for a couple of hours- she's so fun. It was nice being there, she gave me more stickers for cars but I think I'm going to wait until winter is over because I don't want to put it on and have it rub off with this crazy weather that is on the way. </p> <p>Then I went to Timber's...so good. Then work was pretty good too- there are two new girls who seem real nice- they can't go out to the bar, but I guess I can be friends with them still :) Since the other coach is gone for a couple months I'm in charge of level 4's which is fun, I like being in control alone. The girls are so much fun, maybe I'll try to get a pic of them to put on here. </p> <p>So Kyle is having this holiday dance party, I think it's really interesting. I haven't digested it yet I guess. I'm just not sure what it means and what is supposed to happen there? We'll play it by ear.</p> <p><font color="#cc33cc">12 days till the big 22.</font> I'm not so excited, but I'm sure it will be fun. It just sucks that its on a tuesday, the only fun place will be the Pub and usually that's too busy for me. I bought a shirt for it, but I"m not sure if I will actually wear it, its pretty risky for me. I might just have to toughen up. </p> <p>I have a big bur test tomorrow worth 50 pts so I should go and study, but I'm addicted to this and facebook, so here I am. I'm staying at my grandma's tonight- I love getting babied by her...just kidding, I wish she did :) Have a good night- </p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:monika808:5076 2005-11-15T02:09:51Z 2005-11-15T02:09:51Z Higher by Creed <p>Wow- after babysitting for so long today I am really glad that God has not let me get pregnant. I would go crazy. Chase was sick and throwing up, then I had Hunter too for awhile who shit all over everything, his clothes, me, it was absolutley disgusting. I am very glad to be home. </p> <p>I've had a lot of good 'friend' moments lately. It's good to know that I have friends I can count on no matter how small the matter is. Some friends I've also realized aren't the best for me--- one in particular. But I haven't heard from or talked to her in sometime so I guess she feels the same away towards me. Which is fine. </p> <p>Um what else...I've been collaging a lot lately, and I think I've o'd on it. Yes Jessica, like sloppy joes. haha. It's fun though, I've done a nice big section on Brian, it turned out great. I miss that kid like crazy, I really should go see his parents, I know I keep saying that, but I need to. I ran into Brayton at chucky cheese...but didn't have much time talk.</p> <p>Speaking of which, I think Chucky Cheese is my personal hell. I can almost guarentee that is what it would look like which is motivation enough to be a good person. </p> <p>That's about all for now- I don't think anything exciting took place today... except hearing from Nikki, that was nice. Ok, well have a good night- and a busy week :) The weekend can't come soon enough</p> <p>I only have 12 days left for my plan and it is not looking good- I need to up my game, any ideas? Trisha- yes you know who I"m talking about- now make it happen!</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:monika808:4741 2005-11-14T00:45:37Z 2005-11-14T00:45:37Z <img src="http://i35.photobucket.com/albums/d186/monika808/100_0673.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br />Erica, me and Chelsea<br /><br /><img src="http://i35.photobucket.com/albums/d186/monika808/100_0663.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com"><br />Mary, Erica, Chelsea, me and my cousin Jess urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:monika808:4607 2005-11-14T00:37:26Z 2005-11-14T00:39:03Z <p>I'm all excited right now because Chelsea just emailed me the pictures from this weekend- they are cute <p>Thanks to Av for helping with lj! That's what friends are for :)</p> <p>Ok...so this weekend at Western was fun- a lil drama, but it usually follows me. I had a good time seeing everyone- met new friends that were great, got a little closer with Erica and Chelsea which was awesome. Yay for Erica getting out and away from studying!</p> <p>I recommend every guy go out and buy Givenchy cologne- that is absolutely amazing!</p> <p>I also was cheezing all friday afternoon- my work friends were so confused- the little girls were like Monica what's wrong? haha- </p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:monika808:4114 2005-11-09T15:07:44Z 2005-11-09T15:07:44Z <p>OK...so slowly but surely I'm getting this to work...</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p>This week is going by slowly since I'm so excited about this weekend. I'm glad Erica and Chelsea decided to go too, I just hope we all get along and have a good time. There will be 14 of us staying with Jess, that's a lot in her little house, but it will be fun I'm sure. :)</p> <p>I have a dentist appt soon, I'm so excited- I love going there. It is even more exciting now that I know what they are talking about while I sit there- I can't wait to be working in that atmosphere. I'm hoping they find something cool- not like my dream though.</p> <p>Val is officially 21 now, I'm sure she's in bed waking up more drunk then she was last night, that's usually what happens with her. She's funny. </p> <p>I've been thinking alot about therapy again...not that anything bad is going on with me that I can't handle, but I think Anthony might have been right about getting over the whole thing with my dad. We'll see I guess- I hate that he knows/knew me so well to make this kind of assumption. And I hate that he is probably right. </p> <p>Well I'm off to start my day...I think I finally found out how to get my picture to show up :) yay!&nbsp;</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:monika808:3861 2005-11-07T13:32:42Z 2005-11-07T13:32:42Z <p>Just a quick update on this weekend...</p> <p>Thursday Mary and I stayed at her sister's house and watched Ashton, he's so cute- we watched the OC and talked--- the usual. Then friday I babysat and worked at the gym then went to pick Val up for her 'birthday' celebration. Meaning she's not 21 yet, but she was in town so we had to take advantage and get her into any bar we could- which meant Len and Gerry's. We had fun, our whole old group was there almost with the exception of a few- Mark, Dan, Tony, Val, Mare, Me, Cash, it was fun- more fun than I've had in a long time. I miss those guys so much- we had a blast. A lot of Nouvel people were there- I love it- I love Nouvel haha. I talked to Kris for a bit- he's a nice guy, I wish I ran into him more. </p> <p>Then Val and I went over to Mo, Pinner and Paul's house for awhile- wow did I find out some shocking news. Ah well- you win some and lose some. I lost. Haha. We hung out there for a bit, then went back to her house. Long night, little sleep. </p> <p>Saturday I went bazaaring with mom and grandma- that was fun, those old ladies push their way around those like its their last day alive. Crazy. Then I worked and went with Mare to babysit Bierleins, then we went to L&amp;G again for Andy's birthday. We didn't stay out late though, we were both exhausted from the night before. Then Mary was blowing on my face...</p> <p>Sunday boring lazy day- church with mom, shopping for groceries, Grandma and Grandpa Rethman came over and I watched the Longest Yard and fell asleep. Exciting. </p> <p>Today I'm babysitting Chase in awhile- then 2 tests and 2 papers due- so I will be taking him to the library today...not sure how that is going to go- but let's cross our fingers! I hope everyone had a good weekend- next weekend I'm going to WMU so I won't be around...but I can't wait to go and see Jess! </p> <p>Kaitlin or someone...I have some pics I want to put on here- can you tell me how you do it? </p> <p>Bye friends...</p> <p>love, Monica :)</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:monika808:3732 2005-10-30T21:02:10Z 2005-10-30T21:02:10Z <p><font color="#993399">Ok so this weekend was exactly what I wasn't expecting. Friday I worked until 9:30 then met Mary and Kristie at the quad to see Wedding Crashers. Very funny. I think I might have crush on Vince Vaughn- I loved him. Then went home to hang out with Nick. Saturday went to SVSU to tailgate with him, Nikki and her family. (FYI Nick is my brother and Nikki is his gf) Her brother is the captain for Mich Tech and that's who they played, so we went to watch him. That turned into a really emotional experience for me. My dad is a big drinker, and anyone who is close to me know how much this has had an effect on me, and my brother did some things that just were crazy- and it ended up with me crying like a 5 year old- and Nikki doing the same. Thank God the day is over, because I really needed it to end. </font></p> <p><font color="#993399">After hanging out there I followed this really nice family to Howell to hang out with Derek. Once I got to his house we hung out and talked for awhile and then decided on Bennigans for some food. We had a good time&nbsp;lounging around&nbsp;and watching pretty much every sporting event that was on tv...which I can guarentee was more fun for him than for me...I had a better time when it was just him and I, but his friend came over later and things quickly changed directions. I think I'd have liked his friend more if I hadn't had such a bad day because Nick was mean like I am, but I just wasn't in the mood for it. I don't think I even want to comment on the rest of the night- let's say that things happen for a reason, and hopefully I know the reason for this one. Don't get me wrong, Derek and I get along well- I just never know what to think once I leave or he leaves. Ah well, its always fun to just have a snuggle buddy. </font></p> <p><font color="#993399">I'm tired today, I just took a nice long nap though- I put in the Notebook and sure enough it was uninteresting enough that it let me fall asleep pretty fast. I still feel like I'm sleeping right now, but I have to force myself to stay awake or else tomorrow will be an even longer than day then it usually is. I'm glad I do'nt have class- just Chase all day- he's such a lil stud. </font></p> <p><font color="#993399">Oh- so after the drama with my brother and Nikki I did something I pry shouldn't have- but I called Anthony and left him a message crying and saying how I needed to talk to him. I normally wouldn't have done that, I mean I haven't talked to him in almost 6 months, but he was there through so much with my family that he is one of the only ones that really knows what goes on- so suprisingly he called me back and we talked. It was nice, but at the same time I regretted calling him and getting him involved in things that he didn't need to be a part of. I dont want to be that type of ex-girlfriend, but bottom line is that if you date someone for 3 years you can't turn off the switch of connection very easily. Anyways, I know it was a dumb decision, but too late now. </font></p> <p><font color="#993399">I've been downloading Ben Harper songs like crazy- he's so hot. I love his music, WalkAway is my new fav. of his, but I hate it too because its a bit depressing...haha. I'm a girl- never can make up her mind. </font></p> <p><font color="#993399">ooo...I bought new t-shirt sheets this weekend, does anyone else have and love these!? I think they are amazing- mmmm. It's the small things that keep me happy I guess. Ok- well people used to leave me messages on here, and now no one does- how come? All right- well Have a good week!</font></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:monika808:3519 2005-10-28T02:58:09Z 2005-10-28T02:58:09Z <p>Yes, I'm very tired- so this will be short- I just haven't been on here in a few days. I have seen my 2 gfs a lot this week, and that's fun...and well needed. Advice is coming to me from every which way- and I have no idea's whose to take. I wish I could give <u>myself </u>some. Um, so this weekend I'm officially going to hang out with Derek- dinner drinks movie- sounds like fun- we get along so well- I'm sure we'll have a good time. Then I have tons of studying to do on Sunday. </p> <p>Kristie gave me her blessing- she had to. I did what I thought was appropriate and it blew up so far in my face- the rules of the game are pathetic. I should have been the boy. God should have known. :)</p> <p>I love my job lately- coaching these girls is sooo much fun ! I hope it works out with my classes for the rest of the year. I also love who I work with- they are a real fun group...with the exception of one ...haha.</p> <p>All right, well I'm taking Chase bumper bowling tomorrow, hopefully things go well. I'll update more interesting things later- </p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:monika808:3264 2005-10-24T18:15:02Z 2005-10-24T18:15:02Z The General by Dispatch <p>Yesterday was a huge crazy day- but overall, it was really great. Mom and I took Savannah and Josie (my 2 little cousins) shopping and then I accidentally killed their cat. Yes I feel bad- so please don't tell me I'm going to hell. Then I was on the phone for possibly 4 straight hours with different people until my phone finally died. My phone was so hot, and it made my cheeks red like crazy- normally they only get like that when I...haha, nevermind. When Beth and I talk it makes me miss her so much- I can't wait until she's home. She was freaking out of making a 'mistake' with the ex- but I'm pretty sure everyone of my close friends have done the exact same thing- it happens. Val called- which is always interesting haha, she's got such a different outlook on life- its fun to see things from her p.o.v. I feel bad for her situation with the fam, but just like Desperate Housewives, every family has their set of problems, some just hide them better. I talked to Cass too- I'm trying to work her game for her- I think her and Rufis would be adorable together :) My cousin is trying to get me to move in with her, which is something I would consider in August once I"m done with school- not yet. I think we'd fight everyday if we lived together- we'll see!</p> <p>Anyways- Val's proud of me- I think? :) </p> <p>This weekend might end up being a huge big mistake- but I think its a chance that I need to take. I feel bad that I'm always so vague on here, but I'm just not sure who all reads it...and although this guy is not usually online- he's a little sneaky- so he might be reading it anyways. haha- I'm pretty sure no one is approving of it except me anyways, so you're better off not knowing. </p> <p>&nbsp;</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:monika808:3065 2005-10-22T23:16:26Z 2005-10-22T23:16:26Z <p>So Val called me today and told me she's <u><font color="#009900">worried</font></u> about me for an *interesting* reason :) wow is all I can say. She decided that I have until my birthday to hook up with the crush- which means I have <font color="#ff6666" size="4">38</font> days- and if nothing happens- like more hanging out, a kiss or SOMETHING, then I have to let it go and move on. She's my most <font color="#33ccff">ridiculous </font>friend ever, always looking out for me in the most absurd ways. But I love her! Today is day 1, we'll see what happens. She's not coming home for her bday anymore, but hopefully she'll meet me, Mare, Cassie and whoever else goes at Western for <strong>CMU/WMU</strong> weekend. I'm pretty excited about that. Anyone of you going? Or want to go?</p> <p>I've been having really shitty dreams lately- ones that have such great detail they freak me out. The other night at Kristie's I woke up crying, which I've never done before, because of a <font color="#3366ff">dumb dream about a dumb person</font>. Anyways, school is clicking and I'm not sure if I mentioned that before or not. But my fam is over and we are about to eat tacos :) Hope everyone is having a good weekend... <font color="#cc66cc">*wish me luck*</font></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:monika808:2569 2005-10-21T00:59:40Z 2005-10-21T00:59:40Z I guess Tupac, I've been listening to him all day Can someone please tell me how to make a cool background with pictures like some of you have? I want it to be cool like Jordanne's, but I don't have the same program she has. Please help me :( anyone? <br /><br />My rich text won't work either - so now not only is my background ugly, my font is too. Aww.<br /><br />Ok- so this whole week I've been staying with Kristie and Amy to save some gas. It's been fun, Kristie and I haven't hung out in awhile and we needed to. We had a really good laugh one night, we were being ridiculous, but sometimes you need to do that. Last night I stayed at Mary's, I love that girl. She's so great. School actually clicked this week, I'm not sure what it is, but everything is falling into place and I'm so happy. I was really stressing out early and now I just keep thinking only a couple more months. I can do it. <br /><br />I feel like there are new things going on in my life, but there really aren't. I talked to Mr. Emmenecker on the phone tonight, that was hot. I haven't told Val yet- she'll think that's weird. Its good to be home after being gone for so many nights, I can't wait to sleep in my bed. Kristie said she's going to order me this thing from LTD that is a huge pillow and it has an arm on it so you can snuggle with it, I'm pretty excited.<br /><br />This is going to be a pretty uneventful weekend, I'd like to get ahead on some of my projects due- so I'm trying to tell myself I'm staying home. But...it was pay week, so I have 2 checks right now that look like good bar money. My priorities are so confused. I'm up for a good movie though if anyone just wants to hang out and watch one- let me know. <br /><br />I think I'm going to email Derek tonight, we have such a weird thing. That's all I can call it- with us being so far from each other we shouldn't even really try to be friends, but we get along so well. I miss hanging out with him- I need to know if he's going to Central/Western weekend. <br /><br />Kaitlin- I went to Tim Hortons today and got a chili bread bowl- I LOVE IT...its my fav! I thought of you :) Anyways- That's pretty much all I have right now- I miss things that I used to be able to do in the fall...where is all my time? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:monika808:2325 2005-10-16T16:50:34Z 2005-10-16T16:50:34Z <p>Yesterday turned out all right after all, Cats was really good, I was getting antsy near the end- but it was just as good this time as any other time I've seen it. Mare and I went to BDubs to meet Kel for her 21st- then went to Westtown. Well, Mare and I went to Lucky's first while we debated going next door. It was ok- I pretty much hate Midland St, and last night reminded me why. I saw a lot of people from Reese that I didn't care to see, which was fine- just could have lived without it. Kirk was there, that was exciting, I haven't seen him in a while and he looked hot as usual :) He's so nice, I can't believe that he's going to marry this girl though- I never thought he'd settle down. On the way home (ok back to Mary's) we called my drunk cousin- she was so funny! We laughed at her and called her a slut- per usual. Ha. </p> <p>Today I'm taking my cousin Hunter to the pumpkin farm- should be interesting since the kid is the devil. He's lucky he's so cute. I think Nick and Nikki might go with us. </p> <p>I think I'm going to WMU next weekend, I haven't decided- I just miss it there- I miss my bf. Stud. Anyways, not much else- *have a good day*</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:monika808:2089 2005-10-15T21:55:55Z 2005-10-15T21:55:55Z <p>Today is quite possibly my girliest loserest day ever. It's terrible! I'm being 'that pathetic girl' and its someone I <u><font color="#ff6600">never</font></u> wanted to be. Without going into too much detail- I need to toughen up and let go of the past. A part of me will always be <font color="#ff99ff">wishing</font> things never changed, but deep down I know that I will realize that its the best thing. I'm not stupid, I do realize that I should be over this by now...but I tend to hold on to things too long and get sad and ridiculous when its time to let go of things that are <font color="#33cc00">important</font> to me. After hearing this news today- I have so many crazy emotions and thoughts flying through my head that I want to do <font color="#ff0000">drugs</font> to get them out of there! Seriously- its a definate good thought. <font color="#3333ff">I wish I could fast forward sometimes and see what this part and time of my life prepared me for. </font>Right now I am in the dark. However, despite the news I was able to talk to a *really* good friend of mine who I <u><strong>miss a lot</strong></u>. Ok- now I'm crying. I can't handle this girl thing. Someone please shoot me. </p> <p>Anyways- tonight is Kelly's 21st...Mare and I&nbsp;are going to BDubs with her, but not staying with them all night since we don't know anyone really.Then who knows- I need to have a good night. This week has been really shitty- I've cried more than I needed to that's for sure. I'm usually not like this- I hope it doesn't last long. Well, I'm at my grandma's and need to start getting ready- I'm going to Mary's in a bit and then off to see Cats at the Civic center with mom and Nikki's mom. Nick's in town- hopefully I get to see him before he leaves. I need a good night tonight, but I know it will be no matter what goes on- I"ll be with my bf and she always takes care of me :) ok let me get sappy a little more- I have NO idea what I'd do without Mary. No clue- all right- I'm done acting like an 8th grade girl at the school dance crying in the bathroom. Haha, remember that girl? There was always one at the dances :) never me though!</p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:monika808:2043 2005-10-13T17:29:17Z 2005-10-13T17:29:17Z I'm only happy when it rains! Let's see...its 1:00 and I've already cried 4 times today. Unbelievable. I guess you could say I don't handle stress and pressure that well. Today in clinicals we took a quiz- no matter how long I stared at those questions the answers were not coming. People started to hand in theirs and I had only answered 4. I filled in the blanks with whatever came to mind. BLEW IT. Usually I have a system about multiple choice questions- I always put B if I don't know them, which comes from my childhood obsession with Bob. Hence the B. Ok, pathetic way to go about it, but sometimes they end up being right. Not today. I'm to the point right now where I have come too far to turn back, I only have 8 more months of school...for the rest of my life. But I'm pretty sure these 8 months are going to kick my ass the entire time. I cried today because I feel so overwhelmed, with school, with work, with money, with friends, with not living in town, everything- it is so overwhelming. I feel like I have all these people that I cannot let down, and because of that- I am letting myself down. I'm not giving myself as much time as I need to do the things that are important to me. It is a terrible feeling that I have, like I'm being pulled in 100 directions, and I can't just choose one because they are all equally important. Life was so much easier when my mom would tell me what to do, what to wear, give me money- these 'big' girl decisions suck. I hate them. I just want to get through this semester fast and have a nice long Christmas break. I wish other people would talk about how overwhelmed they are feeling, because right now I feel like I'm the only one that can't handle college life. My teachers tell me to stop working- right. That isn't an option, I pay for everything- school, books, gas, car, phone- there's no way that I can do it with my good looks. I want to be a kid again... :(<br /><br />Once you get in a bad/sad mood, it seems that everything that has ever gone wrong in your life is back...ready to keep you crying. So of course I think about all sorts of things that I shouldn't be dwelling on- Ant, dying, sicknesses, etc. etc. I need a huge hug right now. I want someone to just take me in their arms and hold me. I think that's really what I need- not necessarily a boyfriend- just someone that will be there for me, to hang out, to laugh with, to cuddle, to watch movies, to go out with, just someone close that I can always count on. With my two best guy friends away at school, I don't have that right now. It's strange.<br /><br />I know this is a long entry, but I have lots on my mind. What's on your mind?? urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:monika808:1562 2005-10-12T15:51:25Z 2005-10-12T15:51:25Z EVERYONE DO THIS! <p><a name="cutid1"></a>Look at the following list and:<br><br>1) Bold what is true about you.<br>2) Italicize what you wish was true about you.<br>3) Add one true thing about you to the end of the list.<br>4) Tag five LJ friends.<br><br><br><br><br>* <b>I miss somebody right now. <br>* I don't watch much TV these days.</b><br>* <strong>I love olives.<br></strong>* <strong>I own lots of books.<br>* I wear glasses or contact lenses.<br>*</strong> I love to play video games.<br>* <strong>I've tried marijuana.</strong><br>* I've watched porn movies.<br>* I have been in a threesome.<br>* <strong>I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship</strong>.<br>* <b>I believe honesty is usually always the best policy.<br>* I curse some of the time.<br>* I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.</b><br><br>* I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.<br>* <i>I'm TOTALLY smart. </i><br>* I have broken someone's bones.<br>* I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.<br>* I hate the rain.<br>* <strong>I'm paranoid at times.<br>* I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.<br>* I need/want money right now.<br>*</strong> I love sushi. <br>* <strong>I talk really, really fast.</strong><br>* I have fresh breath in the morning. <br>* <b>I have long hair. </b><br>*<strong> I have lost money in Las Vegas. <br></strong>* <b>I have at least one sibling.</b><br>* I was born in a country outside o/bf the U.S.<br>* <b>I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.<br>* I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.</b><br>* <i>I like the way that I look. </i><br>* <b>I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.</b><br>* I know how to cornrow.<br>* I am usually pessimistic.<br>* <strong>I have a lot of mood swings.</strong><br>* I think prostitution should be legalized.<br>* <strong>I think Britney Spears is pretty. <br></strong>* <strong>I slept with a roommate.</strong> (not sure if this is true not...val? does it count?)&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; &nbsp;&nbsp; * <i>I have a hidden talent.</i><br>* I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.<br>* I have a lot of friends.<br>* <b>I am currently single. </b><br>* <strong>I have pecked someone of the same sex.<br></strong>*<strong> I enjoy talking on the phone.<br></strong>* <strong>I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.<br></strong>* I love to shop.<br>* I enjoy window shopping.<br>* I would rather shop than eat.<br>* <strong>I would classify myself as ghetto.</strong> (just kidding, but I try:) )<br>* I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.<br>* I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.<br>* <b>I don't hate anyone. I dislike them.</b><br>*<strong> I'm a pretty good dancer.</strong> <br>* I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.<br>* <b>I have a cell phone. </b><br>* <strong>I believe in god.</strong><br>*<strong> I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.<br></strong>* <strong>I've rejected someone before.<br>* I currently like someone.<br>*</strong> I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. <br><strong>*</strong> <em>I want to have children in the future.</em><br><strong>* I have changed a diaper before.</strong><br>* I've called the cops on a friend before.<br>* I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.<br>* <strong>I'm not allergic to anything.</strong> <br>* <b>I have a lot to learn. </b><br>* I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.<br>* I am shy around the opposite sex.<br>* I’m online 24/7, even as an away message.<br>* <b>I have at least 5 away messages saved.<br>* I have tried alcohol or drugs before. <br>* I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.</b><br>* I own the "South Park" movie.<br>* <b>I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.</b><br>* When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.<br>* I enjoy some country music.<br>* <b>I would die for my best friends.</b><br>* I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.<br>* I watch soap operas whenever I can.<br>* I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.<br>* I have used my sexuality to advance my career.<br>* <strong>I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all. <br></strong>* I know all the words to Slick Rick’s "Children’s Story".<br>* Halloween is awesome because you get free candy. <br>* I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.<br>* I have dated a close friend's ex.<br><strong>* I like surveys/memes.<br>* I am happy at this moment.</strong> <br>* I’m obsessed with guys. <br>* Democrat.<br>* Conservative Republican.<br>* I am punk rockish.<br>*<strong> I am preppy.</strong><br>* I go for older guys/girls, not younger.<br>* <i>I study for tests most of the time.</i><br>* I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.<br>* I can work on a car. <br>* <strong>I love my job.</strong> <br>* <b>I am comfortable with who I am right now. </b><br>* I have more than just my ears pierced.<br>* <strong>I walk barefoot wherever I can.<br>*</strong> I have jumped off a bridge.<br><strong>*</strong> I love sea turtles.<br>* I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.<br>* <strong>I believe in prophetic dreams.<br>* I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.<br>* </strong>I am proficient on a musical instrument. <br>* I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.<br>* <strong>I hate office jobs.</strong><br>* I love sci-fi movies.<br><strong>* I think water rules.</strong><br>* I went to college out of state.<br>* I am adopted.<br>*<strong> </strong>I like sausage.<br>* I am a pyro.<br>* I love the Red Sox.<br>* <strong>I have thrown up from crying too much.<br></strong>* I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.<br><strong>* I love kisses.</strong><br>* I fall for the worst people and have been hurt every time.<br>* <b>I adore bright colors.</b><br>* I love Dear Abby.<br>*<strong> I can't live without black eyeliner.<br></strong>* I think school is awesome.<br>* I think pigtails serve a purpose.<br><strong>* I don’t know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.</strong><br>* I usually like covers better than originals.<br>* I don't like multi-textured ice cream.<br>* I think John Cusack is adorable.<br>* I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.<br>* I watch Food Network way too much.<br>* I love coaching youth sports.<br>* I can pick up things with my toes.<br><strong>* I can't whistle.</strong><br>* I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes’ slither.<br>* <b>I have ridden/owned a horse.</b><br>*<strong> I still have every journal I’ve ever written in.</strong> <br>* <b>I can't stick to a diet.</b><br>* <strong>I talk in my sleep.</strong><br>* I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.<br>* I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.<br>* Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.<br>* I have jazz in my blood.<br>* I would not be friends if they weren't family.<br>* I wear a toe ring.<br>* <strong>I have a tattoo.</strong><br>* <strong>I love vaginas.</strong><br>* <strong>I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.</strong><br>* I am a caffeine junkie.<br>* I know who Santos L. Halper is.<br>* I read trashy romance novels and I am ashamed. <br>* I love wrestling.<br>* I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.<br>*<strong> If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.</strong><br>* I cosplayed or know what cosplaying is.<br>* <strong>I have been to over 15 conventions.</strong> <br>* I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.<br>* I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.<br>* I'm an artist.<br>* I have a goal to collect every Johnny Depp movie ever made.<br>* I am ambidexterous. <br>* I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.<br>* My computer has a name.<br>* <strong>If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.</strong><br>* I have terrible teeth.<br>* I hate my toes.<br><strong>* I did this Meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.<br>* I have more friends on the internet than in real life.</strong><br>* I have lived in either three different states or countries.<br>* <strong>I am extremely flexible.</strong><br>* I love hugs more than kisses. <br>* <strong>I want to own my own business.<br>* I smoke or have tried cigarettes.</strong> (tried twice)<br>* I have met a star from ABC's LOST.<br>* <strong>I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else.<br>*</strong> Nobody has ever said I'm normal.<br><strong>* Sad movies, games, fics and the like can cause a trickle of tear every now and then.</strong><br>* I am proficient in the use of many types firearms and combat weapons. <br>* I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.<br><strong>* I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.<br>*</strong> I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.<br>*<strong> I have played tennis with my non dominant hand before.<br></strong>* I have played strip poker with someone else before.<br>* <b>I read the labels on food, shampoo, and other things just because.</b><br>*<strong> I have emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.<br></strong>* <b>I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.</b><br>* <strong>I can't stand being alone.</strong> <br>* <b>I have at least one obsession at any given time.</b><br>* <strong>I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.</strong><br>* I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.<br>* I know what THACO means.<br>* I have a signed Tom Servo head.<br>* I'm a judgmental asshole.<br>* I'm a HUGE drama-queen.<br>* I was a Spice Girls fan and I'm proud of it.<br>* I have traveled on more than one continent.<br><strong>* I sometimes wish my father would just disappear.<br>* I have seen every single episode of more than one television show.<br>* I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.</strong><br>* I am a Libertarian.<br>* I can sing songs in languages I don't speak.<br>* I could speak more than one language.<br>* I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.<br>* <b>I am very confused.<br>* I believe that everything ends.<br>* I like happy endings.<br>* I ask too many questions.</b><br>* I coined the word "puccashina" and am the only one using it.<br>* I am a closet philanthropist.<br>* <em>I can recite all 50 states in alphabetical order, from memory.</em><br><strong>* I would rather read than watch TV.</strong> <br>* I like reading fact more than fiction.<br>* I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.<br>* I have at one time considered becoming an assassin using only a knife and a pack of gum.<br>* The only news show I watch is The Daily Show with Jon Stewart.<br>* I am more obsessed by drawn characters than real people.<br>* When I try to be normal, people laugh. When I try to be funny, I say something stupid.<br>* To me, breakfast is the most forgotten meal of the day. <br><strong>* I sometimes enjoy the therapeutic value of a good cry.<br>* I live in places that aren't my own.</strong><br>* I don't like being "over-burgered"<br><strong>I've consumed alcohol <br></strong>I've run away from home<strong> <br>I have lied to my parents about where I am<br></strong>Not liked Bush because he is dumb<br>Not liked Bush with my own reasons to back it up<br><strong>Liked Bush</strong><br>I listen to political music.<br>I collect comic books<br>I am shorter than 5'5<br>I think I'm ugly<br>I shut others out when I'm depressed<br><strong>I open up to others easily<br></strong>I am keeping a secret from the world<br>I watch the news<br><strong>I own over 5 rap CDs<br>I own an iPod or MP3 player</strong> <br>I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece<br><strong>I own something from Hot Topic</strong><br>I own something from Pac Sun<br><strong>I own something from The Gap</strong><br><b>I own something I got on e-bay<br>I love Disney Movies<br>I am a sucker for hair/eyes</b><br>I don't kill bugs<br><strong>I curse<br></strong>I paid for that cell phone ring<br>I am a sports fanatic<br>I have "x"s in my screen name<br>I've slipped out an "lol" in a real conversation<br>I love Spam<br><em>I bake well</em><br><strong>I would wear pajamas to school</strong><br><strong>I own something from Abercrombie</strong><br><b>I have a job </b><br>I love Martha Stewart<br><b>I am in love with love</b><br>I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS<br><b>I'm self conscious.<br>I like to laugh</b><br>I smoke a pack a day<br>I liked Perks of Being a Wallflower<br>I liked Go Ask Alice<br>I have cough drops when I'm not sick<br>I can't swallow pills<br><strong>I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem</strong><br>I eat fast food weekly <br>I have many scars<br><strong>I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room<br></strong>I am really ticklish <br>I see a therapist<br>I take anti-depressants<br>I love white chocolate<br>I bite my nails<br><strong>I am comfortable with being me</strong><br>I play video games<br><strong>I'm single</strong><br>I'm in a relationship<br>I'm married<br>Gotten lost in my city<br><strong>Saw a shooting star<br>Wished on a shooting star<br></strong>Saw a meteor shower<br>I had a serious surgery<br><strong>Gone out in public in your pajamas<br>I have kissed a stranger<br>Hugged a stranger</strong> <br>Been in a fist fight <br>Been arrested<br>Laughed and had milk or another drink come out of your nose<br><strong>Pushed all the buttons on an elevator</strong><br><strong>Made out in an elevator</strong><br><b>Kicked a guy where it hurts. <br>Been close to love<br>Been to a casino </b><br>Been skydiving<br>Broken a bone<br><strong>Skipped school<br></strong>Played spin the bottle<br><strong>Gotten stitches</strong><br>Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour<br><strong>Bitten someone<br>Been to Niagara Falls</strong><br><b>Gotten the chicken pox</b><br>Crashed into a friend's car<br>Been to Japan<br><strong>Ridden in a taxi</strong><br><strong>Shoplifted.<br></strong>Been fired<br>Ever had a crush on someone of the same sex.<br><b>Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back</b><br><strong>Stole something from your job <br>Gone on a blind date</strong><br><b>Had a crush on a teacher</b><br>Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans<br>Been to Europe<br>Slept with a co-worker<br>Been married<br>Gotten divorced<br>Had children<br>Been to Africa<br><strong>Driven over 400 miles in one day<br>Been to Canada<br>Been to Mexico</strong><br><b>Been on a plane<br>Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show</b><br>Thrown up in a bar<br>Been snowboarding<br><strong>Been skiing<br></strong>Met someone in person from the internet <br>Lost a child.<br><b>Gone to college</b><br>Graduated college<br><strong>Done hard drugs</strong> (depends what is 'hard')<br>Had someone cheat on you<br><b>Miss someone right now </b><br>Taken pain killers when you didn't need them <br><strong>Smoked weed<br></strong>Snorted cocaine<br><strong>Ate shrooms</strong></p> <p>Inhailed Nitrous<br><b>Been in love</b><br>Cheated in a relationship<br><b>Woke up crying</b><br><strong>Peed from laughing<br>Watched the girl/guy you like make out with someone else</strong><br><strong>Accidentally made yourself vomit</strong><br><b>Kept a journal for more than a year <br>Read more than five books in one week </b><br><strong>Have a website <br></strong>Hate baths<br><strong>Dance when no one else is around<br></strong>Create imaginary friends<br><strong>Refer to actors by the name of a favorite character they portrayed</strong> <br><strong>Love bruises</strong><br><strong>Have sat on the roof<br></strong>Stayed out past curfew<br>Ignored people cause they weren't popular<br><b>Love rain</b><br><a name="cutid2"></a></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:monika808:1496 2005-10-12T14:52:50Z 2005-10-12T14:52:50Z Dancing in the Dark <p>OK...so if this is a journal- its time to get serious. And if you're reading this- its time to get honest with imput. You know that book He's Just Not that Into You? Have any of you read it? It sure is a stab in the heart for me, wow- I'm used to being the one that is brutally honest, so hearing it from someone else sucks! Like I said before- boys are evil right now, but that doesn't stop me from having 6th grade crushes. Its so easy to like what you can't have- but its annoying to. I'm not so sure its that I 'can't' have it- maybe I'm just not trying hard enough because I don't care enough. Either way- blah.</p> <p>Tomorrow night is the pub crawl- not sure if I'm going to go or not- people usually get shot. Plus I said I'm not going to drink for a month- I could really use the extra money I'd be saving. We'll see- I'll have to talk to Smoke and see what she's thinking. </p> <p>I did my hair again- if I knew how to do anything on this website I'd put up a picture, but I have no clue. Its not that great- like a light brown, I'm ready to be back to my natural, but my hair was too dark to get that blonde the first try.</p> <p>Do any of you ever feel like someone that has passed away that you were close to is watching you? For me its my grandpa, I always feel like anything bad I do I need to apologize to him, because I know he sees it. I guess that's the guilt installed into me by being Catholic. I can just see him shaking his head at me in disappointment- and I get even more nervous to think about when my parents pass away, that I won't be able to do anything! Like even have sex with my husband haha, I know I have a weird way of thinking- but it makes me want to get everything out of my system while they are still here. I'd rather disappoint grandpa then my parents. At the same time though- I know Brian is up there laughing his ass off at me, and probably enjoying some of the things going on WAY TOO much. :) Awww, I miss him like crazy- I should go see his parents this week, its been awhile. </p> <p>School is killing me right now, with work and everything else I feel like I have no time for myself. I have a constant headache- its like I have so many people that I can't let down that I'm actually letting myself down to keep them happy. Damned if you do, damned if you don't. </p> <p>I need a weekend of laying in bed- </p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:monika808:1213 2005-10-11T01:06:33Z 2005-10-11T01:06:33Z getcha some by Toby Keith <p>Today went from ok- to just <font color="#ff0000">annoying</font>. I watched Chase all day, he's normally a great kid but he's sick so he had a fever and kept throwing up. I gave him a bath and he peed in it <font color="#cc33cc" size="4">*sick*</font> He wouldn't take a nap, and Ron was late coming home so I was late taking a test. I get to school and one test was <u>taken out</u> a WEEK ago which I didn't even realize was the case, so I'm trying to get ahold of my teacher and see what I can do, but haven't heard from her yet. On the way home <strong>I swear</strong> everyone was driving 10 under the speed limit- I'm not sure what God is trying to do to me...but hopefully its over fast! Whenever I get mad I delete people from my phone or buddy list...just people that I can think of sometime they pissed me off...so I've deleted<font color="#3333ff" size="5"> 82</font> people from my phone today. Basically I have no one left in it, haha.</p> <p>Enough complaining...my life isn't that bad. I haven't made a decision about this weekend yet...either way I'm going to be a bad friend, but seems to be the thing to do right now. I miss my cousin so much, its so weird seeing her all the time all summer and then not being able to. It sucks- and she had a real bad day today too :( <font color="#ff99ff">I love you Jess!</font></p> <p><font color="#000000">Boys are pretty much evil right now ... all I want is someone to snuggle with that enjoys hanging out and watching movies.&nbsp; I'm not even picky- we can watch boy movies, that's fine. I guess I'm a little picky though, because I want someone tall and big, and NOT A PREPPY white boy...gross. Of course I'd like someone that likes to get it on too :) But I don't want to just to be with some random- I swear I'm not having sex again until its with a boyfriend. That's all for now- </font></p> urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:monika808:933 2005-10-10T00:49:37Z 2005-10-10T00:49:37Z <table cellpadding="20" align="center"> <tbody> <tr> <td align="middle"><font size="5"><b>Socialite</b></font><br>You scored 60% Do Gooder, 42% Drive, and 60% Intellect! </td></tr> <tr> <td>You like to flit from flower to flower. That's right, I said 'flit.' You are a nice person with a kind heart, even if it does take you a little while to fully trust someone. When you do though, you like to share. And talking is a good suit with you, because you'd rather do that or sit and be entertained, then go out and do something. That's right, you're a bit on the lazy side. And there's nothing too wrong with that as long as you decide to get up and do something when it really matters. As far as the categories on this test goes, a socialite is something to be proud of, but there are better humans, too. <br><br><i>All human being categories are: Lazy SOB, Rebel w/out a Cause, Evil Mastermind, Henchman, Criminal, Dictator, Frat Boy, Socialite, Philosopher, Stunt Double, Upstanding Citizen, Teacher, Cheerleader, Sister Mary DoGood, Benefactor, Loyal Sidekick, Candy Striper, Goody Two-Shoes. </i></td></tr> <tr> <td align="middle"><img src="http://is1.okcupid.com/users/510/802/5108037915081789471/mt1127318299.jpg"> </td></tr></tbody></table><br><br><br><br /><table cellpadding="20"> <tbody> <tr> <td><span>My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people <i>your age and gender</i>:<br /><blockquote><br /><table cellspacing="4" cellpadding="0" border="0"> <tbody> <tr> <td valign="center"><br /><table cellspacing="1" cellpadding="0" bgcolor="black" border="0"> <tbody> <tr> <td width="51" bgcolor="#b2cfff" height="20"><a href="http://www.okcupid.com/"><img alt="free online dating" src="http://is2.okcupid.com/graphics/0.gif" border="0"></a></td> <td width="99" bgcolor="white"><a href="http://www.okcupid.com/"><img alt="free online dating" src="http://is2.okcupid.com/graphics/0.gif" border="0"></a></td></tr></tbody></table></td> <td valign="center">You scored higher than <b>34%</b> on <b>Do Gooder</b></td></tr> <tr> <td valign="center"><br /><table cellspacing="1" cellpadding="0" bgcolor="black" border="0"> <tbody> <tr> <td width="15" bgcolor="#b2cfff" height="20"><a href="http://www.okcupid.com/"><img alt="free online dating" src="http://is2.okcupid.com/graphics/0.gif" border="0"></a></td> <td width="135" bgcolor="white"><a href="http://www.okcupid.com/"><img alt="free online dating" src="http://is2.okcupid.com/graphics/0.gif" border="0"></a></td></tr></tbody></table></td> <td valign="center">You scored higher than <b>10%</b> on <b>Drive</b></td></tr> <tr> <td valign="center"><br /><table cellspacing="1" cellpadding="0" bgcolor="black" border="0"> <tbody> <tr> <td width="51" bgcolor="#b2cfff" height="20"><a href="http://www.okcupid.com/"><img alt="free online dating" src="http://is2.okcupid.com/graphics/0.gif" border="0"></a></td> <td width="99" bgcolor="white"><a href="http://www.okcupid.com/"><img alt="free online dating" src="http://is2.okcupid.com/graphics/0.gif" border="0"></a></td></tr></tbody></table></td> <td valign="center">You scored higher than <b>34%</b> on <b>Intellect</b></td></tr></tbody></table></blockquote></span></td></tr></tbody></table><table cellpadding="20"><tr><td>Link: <a href="http://www.okcupid.com/tests/take?testid=9537971037618614489">The What Type of Human Are You? 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